Being in the public eye, people have a perception of you - good, bad or indifferent
- Mariah Carey
Lyrics by Mariah Carey
Music by Mariah Carey & Walter Afanasieff
Produced by Mariah Carey & Walter Afanasieff
3:36 Album Version
ABOUT THE SONG
Looking In, the closing track on Carey's Daydream album, says the heady world of vocal iconism is not all it's cracked up to be.
"You look at me and see the girl/who lives inside the golden world/but don't believe that's all there to see/you'll never know the real me . . . don't say she takes it all for granted/I'm well aware of all I have/don't think that I am disenchanted/please understand . . ."
Carey is not too convincing at distancing herself from the character in the song. "It is a very personal song," she smiles uneasily, "but it is more about a mood. We all go through different moods, you can't always feel happy - it's showing a different side.
"When you are in the public eye, people seem to think they know all about you - they form a perception which often bears little relation to the person," she says. The perception problem with Carey may also relate to her literal rags-to-riches story. "Someone said I never paid my dues," she angrily told People magazine in the US last year. "I feel my whole life was struggling, because we were poor. We were alone, we had nothing; no security. I've been paying dues all my life."
Herald-Sun “Carey On Complaining” by NT Koha & I Meldrum, December 7, 1995
Q: “She smiles through a thousand tears and harbors adolescent fears. She dreams of all that she can never be. She wades in insecurity and hides herself in side of me” Is this you?
MC: I mean, you know. It’s for anyone who can relate to that, and I think it’s like, you know, especially being in the public eye, people have a perception of you - good, bad or indifferent, you know what I mean? They all form opinions of you, as we do with anyone in our lives that we encounter, you know? But I guess when you start to deal with it on this level of constantly being scrutinized, you know, and constantly having opinions formed about you, umm I don’t know. I think it’s just something that, it’s a really tough position to be in because the outer person is not always the inner person, you know?
Vision of a Daydream Interview with Donnie Simpson 1996
1996 Released on the Daydream album.
2010 Included on the Playlist: The Very Best of Mariah Carey compilation.