Close My Eyes
The moon was out and I was reflecting on my life
- Mariah Carey
Written by Mariah Carey & Walter Afanasieff
Produced by Mariah Carey & Walter Afanasieff
4:22 Album Version
ABOUT THE SONG
VH1: You originally wrote "Close My Eyes" four years before Butterfly. How did it happen?
MARIAH: I had just done my first concert for a TV special in Schenectady, N.Y. I hadn't done anything other than Unplugged and little one-off shows with a piano player, so if was like my first real concert. I got off stage and went home to this really pretty farm in upstate New York. I was taking a bath and looking out the window - one of my favorite things. The moon was out and I was reflecting on my life. It was the first time I really sat and took it all in. It's almost like I watched my whole career go by. I took a breath and said, "I've really accomplished something. What did it take to get here?" That started the concept for the song. I wrote the whole first verse and kept it in the back of my mind - I didn't even write it down - for like four years. Fast forward to '97, and while writing Butterfly, I picked up where I left off after the first chorus.”
VH1: So the song could be about your career so far.
MARIAH: There are a lot of different things in the song that are personal and symbolic for me. A lot of my fans get very specific about that song because they apply it to their lives. I've read the letters and they really relate to that song. I don't want to say what my symbols are because it's about whatever they want to read into it. I like to keep some of those things for myself.
VH1: What was it about this album that allowed you to let all these emotions come out?
MARIAH: I guess I was putting my foot down and trying to be free. It's like when you've been confined for a long time. You're like a kid in school and then it's recess. Butterfly was almost like recess. [laughs] I was still going through a confusing personal change. The line in "Close My Eyes", "I feel like a child as I look at the moon/ Maybe I grew up a little too soon," encompasses the whole thing really. - VH1’s Ultimate Albums 1997
I started writing that song four years ago. I was up at this farm where we used to go every weekend and I was actually in the bathtub. It was night, I was looking out at the moon and it was just like this introspective little moment, thinking about my life and what I've been through. It's personal - it's about my life and childhood. - TV Hits (Australian Magazine) October 1997
1997 Released on the Butterfly album.